Ok, so i'm back here cos i felt like i had to blog something. Huiling told me to update cos it looks like i have no life. Haha. Well, i do have a life but because i got so much school stuff to do, my life isn't happening. But i'm thankful for everything, really. So i shan't complain anymore.
Something happened last night. Umm, well, i'm thankful to God it happened but i dunno what will happen next. Pretty vague huh. Sorry can't give out the details.
Anyway, i'm off to ZIla's wedding later. Meeting Salwa and then we're meeting Nana at Tampines. Meet the rest of AC11 at the wedding itself!!
It's just exciting to have a friend who's getting married but its not really for the bride. She said it's stressful and we all can see that. Be strong Zila! There's a reason for everything. I believe that. And Selamat Pengantin Baru!! I will have you and your husband in my prayers and hopefully your marriage will last till the end of time!
Right, so i have been really busy. I'm not joking with you. Doing one freaking lab report takes up a day. And then i got 3 other projects to complete. Well, i call them projects cos they're in groups and its kinda like a major assignment.
Anyway, i've had several thoughts in my mind lately. And i just wanna say that i'm thankful to Allah for all that He has given me in my life. Sometimes i complain about certain stuff. Then afterwards i regret cos i think back..and you know, the guilt just folds me in. Its not easy to go through life with a lot of things on your shoulders and in your mind, and needing to be patient through out is just one thing i'm thankful i can do.
And everytime i hang out with my sisters, i just count myself lucky. They always have some kind of problems that arise. And i look at my niece and nephew and i just feel for them to be going through so much at a young age. I saw their dad the other day when sending them off to stay with him for the weekend. He didn't look at us one bit. He just looked at the kids. Well, its his problem. I've got no ties with him anymore.
Then i look at my parents and my heart melts cos they've endured greater pain than i have and they're still going strong. And i so admire my dad's strength and determination. Even though his health isn't very good, he still has that faith in him. To see me when i come home at night after school, it releases his worry. He'll mumble some stuff, thanking God i'm back home safely. I know he loves me and i'm the apple of his eye. It's been apparent since i was a kid. My mum too has been so patient to stick by my dad through all those times. I seriously admire the patience she has. And i think i got that from her too. But sometimes she breaks down and tells me all the things that happened. And i could just listen and feel for her. At least she let it out.
I'm thankful for the kind of life i have. But i hope and pray to God that one day, my family may find some peace and happiness for once.
Whenever i have too much worries or something thats not good going on, i always find peace in praying. It keeps me calm. Its like i talked to Allah and i know he listened. Since i don't really tell much to my friends. It's peaceful. Thank You, Allah.
Ok, i'm not sure but i think i'm feeling a bit emo this morning. Well, it's not always that i can tell people i'm really thankful for everything that i have. Be thankful for what you have already.
